gtfo my head kate nash.

now get outta bed, get out, get out, get, get outta bed.

get up, get down and get undressed 'cause that's what you do best;

strip, strip, strip and shag, fuck get fucked and drag and be impressed by the better sex.

take a piece of raw vegetable, and hold it to your breast and say that you stood for nothing.

you were just a hole that lacked passion, another undignified product of society.

x

omnes te moriturum amant.

remember, remember.

it was just a stupid day, just like any other stupid day.

but i couldn't stand it all being in my head any longer.

it was only one stupid day.

just one day.

He left a card, a bar of soap and a scrubbing brush next to a note,

That said "use these down to your bones".

And before I knew I had shiny skin and it felt easy being clean like him.

I thought "this one knows better than I do".

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle,

He tried to cut me so I'd fit.

My ears are blown to bits from all the rifle hits.

You felt the coming wave,

Told me we’d all be brave.

You said you wouldn’t flinch.

But in the years that passed,

Since I saw you last,

You haven’t moved an inch.

good to know.

"You can't call me a mess. I've heard the stories about you."

"Oh."

so daily blogging is going well.

I am going to die alone. I knew it when I was 14. I shouldn't have forgotten. I shouldn't have forgotten a lot of things. Why do I even bother?

(OH HI WELCOME BACK CRYPTIC BLOGS THAT EVERYONE HATES.)

ooh hello.

Watching american pie 2 and the lads drink. i have to be up early tomorrow so i can't join in. ): We went to tgi friday's earlier, and i got FAR too drunk. there was a lash of a guy across the bar, and i think i was staring... ANYWAAAAYZ. Good craic was had. Felt like part of the group again for a while. Twas nice! I survived my first trip to burger king AND the chinese without meat aha. :3 We got takeaway far too much today.. I spent 50 yoyos on food and cocktails alone today! :|

Overslept and missed my only lecture today, was raging cause it's the last week of them! D: but i think one of the girls is sending me the notes. I still have to tell them i'm leaving the course. Not looking forward to that... I did get a bit of work done on my long overdue french essay done though. So that's good! I'm so exhausted today, only got like 2 hours sleep last night so this is gonna be a very very short blog.

I think i'm going on my second proper date of my whole life this week. I think i'm not ready.
Night loves.

PEAS.

I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song

I love knocked up.

THAT IS ALL.

jkjkjkjklolololol.

Wasn't that fun? *sighs* OKIES.

Day number 2 of veggies! Mam took this to mean "I'll just make ronan the same dinner as normal just without any meat". So i had potatoes and carrots for dinner. MMMMM.

Got the train up today! Was sooooo packed. All the people who couldn't get flights cause of the volcano (now there's a sentence i never thought i'd say) had to get the ferry and then the train! It was like a bajillion degrees, i was scared my laptop would overheat so i had to stop doing work. Or so i told myself. And there's no windows on the new trains! D: tried to be sneaky and use an expired ticket, but it didn't work.. And the stupid ticket man charged me 23 yoyos cause i forgot to say i wanted it from enniscorthy. >.<>

Then i went to dunnes and bought tons of veggies and quorn foods. :D Getting excited to try out this veggie shit properly. :) Bought chips on the way home, was so weird not getting like a burger or chicken nuggets. This BITCH in the shop was being so so rude to the poor guy serving, so i was a royal bastard to her. And took aaaages paying cause i was ahead of her in the queue. and i shouldered her walking out the door. There was no reason to be so fucking rude to the dude, he was foreign and trying. She was such a fucking cow.

Was hyper productive today when i got up to the house! Did the washing up, tidied up the alcohol bottles lying around (we drink sooooo much :|), and took out the bins! Love putting on music and tidying up for some reason.. Maybe it's the monica geller in me.. Now me and steven are watching knocked up, such an awesome movie. ^_^ it's so cute, but i'm so sad when they fall out though... I find it hard to dissociate from - OH MY GOD IT'S THE BIT WHERE HE BUYS HER THE BOOK AND THEY HOLD HANDS. Sorry...

OK! Song for the day today is:

Because it's awesome. And one of the guys is a lash.

It's getting late, to give you up.

the i in team.

nomnomnom burger mac! Feels so weird going in there when it's not 3am on a sunday morning and i'm not drunk off my tits. :3 Staff are oddly nice to sober people...

SO. Today's big news is that i decided to try being a vegetarian for one week. Just to see if i like it! If i wanna do to for more than that, I will. Sue, what does one eat when one is a vegetarian? :D Of course i decided this in work, and i bought the pasta i always eat for lunch, which contains ham. So that was a waste of 3 yoyos! But sure. Been doing good since then, had curry chips and onion rings for dinner! It's so weird, just thinking of the food you can't have! So strange, and I really noticed how much meat people buy today.. Poor animals. Mam was all. BUT YOU DON'T EAT VEGETABLES. So i'mma have to change that, but more importantly, what will I order from San Marino's?!

Work flew by today, we were so so busy! Michael came in, he's a special needs guy who used to live across the road from my grandparents. He's like. the nicest person ever. He tries to help people with their bags and stuff, but he has trouble walking, so they always say no. He's been in love with my Mam since they were kids, so he always gives out about my dad. :3 But anyway! He came in today to do shopping, and got all upset because he couldn't find his bag. But i found it and he was all happy. Disabled people used to make me kinda uncomfortable? Just because i'm afraid i'll upset them, and because i can't judge how they react like i do with people who aren't like that. But lately I've sorta become more confident around them, and I know how to deal with Michael. I like it.

ERM. Oh yeah. One slight hitch today. See I like this guy in work. But i've been hanging about with this other guy. And i told the work guy's best friend about the other guy. And now i'm afraid she'll tell him and that'll go splat. so yeah. Boo hoo ey?

SEE THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU WORK ALL WEEKEND, IT'S ALL YOU TALK ABOUT. :|

I really wanna see Rosetta's puppy! he sounds awesome. :D excited for the last week of term too, kinda wanna be bold and go out... :3

Gonna watch some more Gossip Girl, then maybe some buffy, and then hit the hay.

No real news today at all! OOOI CHARLIE HOPE YOUR THINGY TODAY WENT OKIES. And nola mellon, i think you're hot shit, please date me.

Baby, you can go where ever you like.
I said you can go where ever you like.

not because i HAVE to, because i WANT to.

I need something to pass the time while House buffers... Charlie tells me riki from garfunkel and oates is in it. AWESOME. Also buffering Charles Trippy's vlog for today. I hate the internet here at home, it's so sloooooow. ):

UM. So today.

Yeah, you know where's a bitch to get home from? ANYWHERE THAT IS NOT WITHIN WALKING DISTANCE OF YOUR HOUSE. Getting home from Drumcondra takes like an hour. Which, to be fair, is half the time it took me the last time. Didn't go into college today, kinda thinking i'll just cut my losses, exams are so close! D: Dreading that... I think i've complained about exams in every one of these posts... :3 got back to the house eventually, and it was fun. loads of people there, and the weather was awesome. Good times. :)

Laura brought me home mad early, was back in town by like half 3! We sped the whole way down. :3 It was an awesome day to drive, and we had the radio blaring. ^_^ Got to see Ann for the first time in months! She's so sweet. But she always starts talking as soon as i try to watch tv... OOOOH. Dad gave me fifty big ones cause he won a grand on the lotto! THINK OF ALL THE CRACK I COULD BUY. OMGZ SO MUCH LOLOLOLOL.

Ahem.

I wasn't hungover at all today! Was amazing, cause i was fucked last night. Which was funny, because i ended up minding someone who was drunker that me. Even went for a walk with the puppy earlier! FULL OF VIM AND VIGOUR I AM. Had to stop into work to check my hours, and all the girls were there. And they all took turns petting the pup and talking to him. And he didn't pee on any of them. Good for you Freddie.

WELCOME TO THE PITY PARTY:

I've been feeling really weird lately. Like. Out of place. Even when i'm hanging out with people. I'm really paranoid everything I say is pissing people off, and that i'm doing stuff to annoy them. I dunno. It's making me all messed up, and i'm being weird. Like. Ugh. Fuck it. I'm a big fucking loner is what i'm trying to say.

PITY PARTY OVER.

HRRRM. I have nothing else to say really! My blogs are getting shorter...

Song of the daaaaay:

And I don't remember how it started,

And I don't know how to stop.

i am in a lecture, but he's talk sooooo slowly.

i'm gonna leave at the break i think. i am having a catastrophe of a week in college. :| time's flying by and i'm getting nowhere for these exams. So scared. :|

Today's been a weird day.

Stuffs happened, people said stuff, and i realised like. I'm after becoming the complete slut of our group. And i dunno how it happened. Well. I know HOW. But i dunno why i started. I guess i just saw couples and people in love everywhere around me and just thought it'd be worth it to make believe for a while? I always like the waking-up-with-someone bit and the lying-there-together-when-it's-all-quiet bit better than the actual deed itself. So I guess i'm a slut for the wrong reason. i started looking for that coupley feeling in all the wrong places. so yeah. I kinda get it? But i'm just surprised i've got such a bad rep, cause that's not me at all. i think i've forgotten who i am. TMI i hear you say? Hokai.

So i woke up and saw ray wasn't there. Went downstairs and nearly fell over him asleep on the spare mattress with Aaron. Had to sneak back upstairs cause i didn't wanna wake em up. GOOD TIMES. :3 then i studied for a bit. and made savage toast and tomato soup! Nom nom nom. Which I took a photo of for some reason... I was kinda planning on doing a photo blog today, but i'm too lazy/busy. THEN THE POSTMAN CAME WITH CHARLIE'S PRESENT. Here it is cha:

I hope you like it. ^_^

I think we're going out tonight? I don't really know who's coming. Or what's going on. But I wanna go out, I need a stress-free few hours. Too much shit mounting up...

I AM GOING TO FAIL THIS CLASS SO BADLY BECAUSE I'VE BEEN IGNORING HIM FOR THE PAST HALF HOUR.

This blog takes aaaages to write. (Ugh, I just typed write as right.. :|)

OK, i have a serious headache, so I'mma stop typing. Short blog today, I'll add more later if anything interesting happens.

PEAS.

updated.

I quite like this blogging business. Although i'm sure i'll fall out of like with it soon enough. Does anyone remember when omgpop used to be iminlikewithyou? It was a simpler time, it was a better time.

Last night was such a laugh. Me chris and steven playing final fantasy (i.e. watching chris play, while i read out a walkthrough) alllll night. Finally went asleep at six, and got up at half eight for no reason! I'm not tired at all now though, and i did a bit of revision this morning so it's all gravy baby. We realised last night we have far too many sayings. Last night was comprised pretty much entirely of us saying:

"Say Cool." "Cool." "Say whip." "Whip." "Say Cool Whip." "Coolwhhhip."

"I'm not Seabiscuit, I'm Penelope Cruz."

"You know what I like the most?"

I'll give someone a prize if they know what they're all from. (Hint: the last one is DEFINITELY NOT from porn.)

I really really want a CTxFC hoody now. Only because they get molested in the new vlog OBVIOUSLY. and cause they're cool. I also want the roflcopter t-shirt, so i can walk around all day going SOI SOI SOI SOI SOI SOI SOI SOI. (explanation: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6KR0rbojIM&feature=related)

I looked up Charles Trippy on wikipedia cause i wanted to find out what his real job was (turns out he gets paid to talk to a camera, which charlie told me!), and it said after CTxFC that "the 'x' is silent". Ummm. Ya wha?

OH. And an update to yesterday. Sometimes someone who has done something that makes you want to kick them very hard in the groin doesn't actually mean to. And that's ok. And they stop being a dickhead. For now at least.

Oh yeah! I watched the first half of glee last night! new episode was put up! Songs are so so good. The start of Rachel's Gives You Hell is dreadful, but it gets cracking. And i actually liked Finn's song for once... I'm actually looking forward to the Madonna episode, even though I hate her. Rachel's Like A Prayer looks savage.

Downloaded like 8 albums! Something Corporate, MeWithoutYou, the Killing Moon and Motion City Soundtrack. OOOH and Tokyo Rose. If I don't get arrested after that, I doubt I ever will. MeWithoutYou are currently in the lead! I'mma put my favourite song at the end of this. I like how my blog is starting to stop being a mess of cryptic bullshit i just needed to get out of my head. I'm starting to sound like a normal person. :3

that :3 smiley looks fucked up with this font, but i like it..

Nola, please start daily blogging again. OR DALY BLOGGING AS CHARLIE SO WITTILY CALLED IT LOLOLOLOLOL.

Is wittily a word? ._.

anyways. i'm gonna try do some work and make dinner soon. I'm starving. I'll update later if i'm bothered, i know you'll all be on the edge of your seats. (;

PEAS.

I couldn't decide on one song. Here's TWO MeWithoutYou songs. Lucky you.

A fish swims through the sea
While the sea is, in a certain sense
Contained within the fish!

One day the water's going to wash it away,
One day the water's going to wash it away,
One day the water's going to wash it away.
Nothing clever to say.
One day,
Nothing else to say.

Update:

I think i'm kinda heartbroken again. But it's late in the game now, and i'm going down swinging.

http://www.gleesongs.com/seasonone/1x15%20-%20Like%20A%20Prayer.mp3

oh hai.

SO. I'mma follow Nola's example and blog daily for a week. I might do it for longer. MEBBE. hokai?

Well, i didn't get up til noon. So my productivity is gonna be low for today! Skipped my french lecture, wanted to stay home and study. Exams are so fucking close it is scary. Had a panic attack about them today. Exactly 3 weeks from today they start! Dreading that, I've been lazy out this semester! I did go in for my Constitutional law lecture however, and I got all cranky in it. We were doing stuff about marriage rights? And we had a whole big section on gay marriage/gay adoption, etc. And I'm not like that bothered with shit like that. It's just not my thing. People have their own opinions and that's cool. What annoyed me was that the lecturer kept criticising all the attempts that the Government and judges and all tried to make a step toward legalising gay marriage. And then said how right the judges were to not allow gay marriage. And like, she's entitled to think whatever she wants. But when you're talking to a room of 200 people, you don't do that shit ya know? She should've been unbiased, not spouting off her beliefs and treating it as gospel. If she was gonna criticise, she should've put out the other side of the argument again. OH YEAH. And then we did a case about a transsexual, and she was all "haha, i always get confused with this case because i never know who's a man and who's not." And no-one laughed. I was delighted. Like that's someone's whole life you're making fun of there bitch. As you can see i LOVEEEE my Constitutional lecturer.

Rant over.

I swears.

Break the Ice is SUCH a good song. Ray is going to Aaron's tonight, so i think the boysh are gonna stay and play final fantasy in our room. :D We've literally done nothing but play since like last week! So much fun. Needed everyone around lately.

UMMMM.

ohmigod. Last weekend. So much craic! Rosetta's on Friday was savage! Nola and Sue partied on up with us. ^_^ And then Bens on saturday was just the best. So many funny moments. Plus i was with the people from work, and for the first time i felt like part of their crowd too. :)

There was The Incident on Saturday. Where i sent a message to the wrong person. So that was not good. But then when I text him yesterday I got called Andrew. So y'know. Some people are just dicks, and to fucking hell with all of them. But some people are lovely, and I need to stop being a knob to them.

This weather is unreal! walking around lately has consisted totally of me listening to this song. S

Love it. It's such a tune!

I want Charles Trippy's job. BTW.

Right. Gonna stop being antisocial and talk to everyone. BYE BYE.

P.S.: I'm not being lame, but I fucking love this song. So this explains this:

Well, I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

Wear a smile all the while, until there’s no time left to see these things never turn out right.

There should be a name for it. The feeling you get at the exact moment you realise you're at the end of the golden times. That from that moment on you'd forever be looking back and remembering how wonderful it felt, but knowing that it would never feel like that again. Because your puppy got killed. Because your family turned away. Because your heart got broken. Because you sent a text to the wrong number. Because he didn't pick you. Because you're losing them all. Because because because. There should be a fucking name for it.